Just another day

I turned 29 today and much to my surprise, the world did not stop. A birthday is just another day. I had a total breakdown last night. I do not know what hit me but I just burst into tears. I could not even explain to Jonathan what was wrong.

I just felt old. I feel like I should have done some huge things by 29. Like I should be saving the world from something or making a difference. He was so sweet. He knew just the right things to say. He told me that I am doing huge things everyday by raising our little boy, teaching him wrong from right, teaching him new words, planning playdate and social activities, loving him and being there for him. He told me what a great wife I am and how I am the one who keeps this house running. And his words truly were the best gift I ever could receive. I don't necessarily need to save the world, as long as I raise a sweet, respectable little boy then I have done something right.

I had a great birthday. I felt so loved and appreciate so much everyone who reaches out just to say Happy Birthday. Our house looks like something tragic has happened. I have 6 huge bouquets of flowers scattered around. All of which Hudson likes to say are "smelly." My boys gave me a beautiful necklace and some things for the house. My family and friends all sent sweet things. Jonathan showed up after work with a brown bag from the ABC store because he knew I would need a drink after the traumatizing cry last night. And Hudson told me more than once that I was a "good dog." How special right? My niece and nephew called me bright and early just to say I love you and then Will told me 29 was sooooo old.

We went to a special birthday dinner last week so all I wanted tonight was our usual Moe's Tuesday. Yes, we eat there every Tuesday.

I love my family and friends and I am so grateful that I had a day to be reminded just how lucky I am. I am sure my husband is already bracing himself for the gigantic meltdown that will occur when I turn 30. Maybe botox is covered in our flex spending plan?!?!